These pictures are from my gym at work. It just opened this year and I thought, "Why would I ever want to stay at WORK and WORKOUT?" Seriously! Work and working out in once sentence? Talk about two things I try to avoid like the plague! Somehow though, the two things together have been a miracle!I talked a bit ago about how working out is something that is so hard for me because I feel so guilty leaving my kids. This remains true. But, I have already resolved myself to the fact that I have to work and I am used to being gone from my little ones during the day. When I workout in my office gym, I'm able to get in there, get done and get home without feeling like I ever left my kids. They don't know I'm a half-hour later than normal and I don't feel guilty.
Another benefit for me has been that I work harder. Not that the 50 something engineer in shorts from 1984 walking at 2.4 next to me cares at ALL if I work out for 20 or 45 minutes or if I increase my incline or not, but somehow, I feel a twinge of competition. Whatever works, eh?
Another change in life is that I am now eating grains again. This is a new thing, so I have to be really careful not to choose a grain that will be a trigger for me. Hot homemade wheat toast with butter? Um, yeah. Trigger. Makes my mouth water just thinking about it. But a little brown rice in a stir-fry? Not as much. I'm not super excited or worried or anxious about adding grains back in. I think that's a good sign. It just is. I feel like that means I am gaining small amounts of control over food instead of vice-versa.
Finally, I am committing to actually taking the Alli that is sitting on my kitchen windowsill. Weight loss has slowed lately, so I'm hoping that picks it back up. The bottom line, though, is that I've kept going. I've really been doing well since 12/27 - 13 weeks I've been doing well. That is by FAR the longest I've stayed with something. People ask me what is different this time. I honestly don't know the answer besides that I've stuck with it. Probably because I feel liek I can. Brad and Scott have offered me accountability and hope. For me, those have been the two missing pieces in the past.
The best news is that people have started commenting on my weight loss. It took FOREVER it seems, but it has been so motivating and wonderful. My boss (who knows full well that I've been working my butt off) asked me the other day, "Hey, have you been losing weight?" Ha! I seriously laughed out loud. I tried to keep SOME level of respect as he is my boss and all. After I finished laughing at him, I thanked him. I don't care how the compliments come, as long as they keep coming.
2 comments:
Your NC cheering section says "woo hoo!" I am sure I would have all sorts of awesome compliments if I ever actually saw you, but I will take your word for it and say "you're looking great!" keep up the hard work and your spirits. What you are doing is greatly appreciated by your children who will be glad you are around to raise them.
you. are. AwESOME!
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